A Leaf In The Falling Snow

2005-07-03T15:11:00.000+08:00

wun be posting anything here anymore... actually i prefer writing on paper than here.. rem i like this song by usher 'Burn'..? u shd try listening to it too... take care all... anything call/sms me.

2005-06-24T20:03:00.000+08:00

it's not the same anymore...

2005-05-03T12:00:00.000+08:00

03/05/05 4.00am

C: wat time u wanna wake up later?
D: 11am (playing game)
C: u sure u can wake up?
D: yea
C: u noe at time now anot?
D: yea
C: yea... (dozes off)

"My typical dom-ard day starts with..."

03/05/05 11.00am

C: 11 liao... wake up
D: wait...

15mins later...

C: hey 11.15 liao... wake up!
D: duo yi xia!
C: duo yi xia is how long?
D: 11.30
C: damn..

03/05/05 11.30am

C: 11.30 le... u gonna wake up?
D: aiya! wait la!
C: grumbles...

03/05/05 12.00pm

he's still aslp... fuck it!

2005-05-03T11:36:00.000+08:00

finally out on the 1st may... that damn H.H.Tan... staying at home. mc till 25th...but gotta get job asap else die of hunger...

2005-04-18T12:51:00.000+08:00

last week of work @ Chai Chee, night shifts. shd be staying @ bedok for the rest of the week. i already dun feel like going coz i really hate night shifts. but just have to finish it. next week going on hiatus, anyone looking for me leave me a sms. i'll reply asap when i come back. oh and the library book i just rtned it, if they need me to pay for the torn pages, they'll contact me wun they? =)

2005-04-12T00:09:00.000+08:00

long time no blog.. life is so full of decision-making, it happens almost every hour if not every min (unless you can decide what you wanna dream abt tonight).. and i just hate making choices. have finally tendered my resignation to DBS and my last day would be 24th this mth. there's gonna be new job (most probably in a new field), new after-work activities and maybe studies will come into place as well. and before that i need to go through some things that i least expect they would occur to me. and blame on my current job, yea, now, this job.. causing more than enough trouble than anything else could. my health's going down as my career here come to an end (soon). i'm just feeling a little lost.. but i guess after i take up a new job, everything else shd fall nicely into place. pls do..

hell! cheddar loves chewing.. just recently she even gnawed on a library bk i borrowed. thanks to her i may need to pay the library for it. i swear i'll tear her apart if she does that again... yea yea... me and my bullshits.. BUT it's making me soooo angry when she does that, including things like socks, newspapers, magazines and THE floor mat. ya, i did give her toys.. duh

i'll blog again when i am up and settled with my new job (no luck confirming a position yet at the moment).. chill guys.. =)

2005-03-08T10:01:00.000+08:00

Switching job soon, getting too sick for customer service or maybe the long long journey is making me tired.
Its a hard task to start studying again.
The dogs are getting bigger, but getting smelly just becoz someone's not bathing them, that's me.
I hate pple not keeping promises, or just not keeping their word. Breakfast? Like real. Going clubbing with me? Talk c**k.
I've realized that i need company alot, just when i was slping, pple refuses to slp, and when i wake up, voila!.. I'm alone coz pple's slping.
And this year must be jinxed. At least for me it is. Alot of accidents since this year started and i foresee more upcoming.

2005-02-12T13:19:00.000+08:00

life's usual..

the sad teen. Everything in life is f*ckin'
miserable. You constantly look over your
shoulder and wonder who is judging you...even
when you are alone. So naturally, you have
become a little paranoid and pessamistic. Your
personality can be one demensional but
confusing. You are constantly bored with life
and wish that something could spice it up. You
have a unique view on life and have identified
the problems with school society (Ex...what
makes popular people, how the student mind
works...) You would rather be alone because you
hate being hurt. You tend to think that no one
understands you, not even your parents /
guardians / friends. But that is just the
opposite! The people who love you want to
help, but they don't know how because they have
a feeling that they will say something wrong
and turn you away. You have to let them know
that you are willing to hear what they have to
say...and it might do some good to listen to
them.

Some fields you might consider going
in when you are older...Judge, author,
songwriter, producer, therapist, psychologist,
philosopher, or forensic scientist. You need a
job where you can express yourself and your
views on life. Or you need a field where you
can judge others and predict what is going on
in others life. Either way... you have the
personality to get you a good job that will
support you throughout life.

What type of teenager are you?
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Mors

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Your element is Water: Understanding, intelligent,
quiet and calm. You know who you are and no one
can change that. Usually quiet but only because
your listening, don't let anyone think you
haven't got an opinion! Your not quiet because
your shy or sad, your usually quiet because
your thinking. Your answers are well planned
and helpful so people generally seek your
advice. Your the perfect balance between
solitary and outgoing. But sometimes you need a
little time to yourself to sort out your
emotions and figure things out. You understand
the phrase 'sticks and stone' and rarely let
things get to you, whats that important for you
to have to get so upset over? You know what you
want out of life but are simply taking your
time and enjoying things. To you your life is
fine as it is, you can always change things
later if your not happy.

.:-|What is your true element?|-:. -With Anime Pictures and detailed answers-
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2004-12-03T16:08:00.000+08:00

i value most is time, but he doesnt. that's bad.. really bad.

2004-11-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

haiz..

HOW COULD YOU? By Jim Willis, 2001-

When I was a puppy, I entertained you with my antics and made you
laugh.
You called me your child, and despite a number of chewed shoes
and a couple
of murdered throw pillows, I became your best friend.

Whenever I was "bad," you'd shake your finger at me and
ask "How could
you?" -- but then you'd relent and roll me over for a
bellyrub. My
housebreaking took a little longer than expected, because you
were terribly
busy, but we worked on that together.

I remember those nights of nuzzling you in bed and listening to
your
confidences and secret dreams, and I believed that life could not
be any
more perfect. We went for long walks and runs in the park, car
rides, stops
for ice cream (I only got the cone because "ice cream is bad
for dogs" you
said), and I took long naps in the sun waiting for you to come
home at the
end of the day.

Gradually, you began spending more time at work and on your
career, and
more time searching for a human mate. I waited for you patiently,
comforted
you through heartbreaks and disappointments, never chided you
about bad
decisions, and romped with glee at your homecomings, and when you
fell in
love.

She, now your wife, is not a "dog person" -- still I
welcomed her into our
home, tried to show her affection, and obeyed her. I was happy
because you
were happy.

Then the human babies came along and I shared your excitement. I
was
fascinated by their pinkness, how they smelled, and I wanted to
mother
them, too. Only she and you worried that I might hurt them, and I
spent
most of my time banished to another room, or to a dog crate. Oh,
how I
wanted to love them, but I became a "prisoner of love."

As they began to grow, I became their friend. They clung to my
fur and
pulled themselves up on wobbly legs, poked fingers in my eyes,
investigated
my ears, and gave me kisses on my nose. I loved everything about
them and
their touch -- because your touch was now so infrequent -- and I
would've
defended them with my life if need be. I would sneak into their
beds and
listen to their worries and secret dreams, and together we waited
for the
sound of your car in the driveway.

There had been a time, when others asked you if you had a dog,
that you
produced a photo of me from your wallet and told them stories
about me.
These past few years, you just answered "yes" and
changed the subject. I
had gone from being "your dog" to "just a
dog," and you resented every
expenditure on my behalf.

Now, you have a new career opportunity in another city, and you
and they
will be moving to an apartment that does not allow pets. You've
made the
right decision for your "family," but there was a time
when I was your only
family.

I was excited about the car ride until we arrived at the animal
shelter. It
smelled of dogs and cats, of fear, of hopelessness. You filled
out the
paperwork and said "I know you will find a good home for
her." They
shrugged and gave you a pained look. They understand the
realities facing a
middle-aged dog, even one with "papers."

You had to pry your son's fingers loose from my collar as he
screamed "No,
Daddy! Please don't let them take my dog!" And I worried for
him, and what
lessons you had just taught him about friendship and loyalty,
about love
and responsibility, and about respect for all life.

You gave me a good-bye pat on the head, avoided my eyes, and
politely
refused to take my collar and leash with you. You had a deadline
to meet
and now I have one, too. After you left, the two nice ladies said
you
probably knew about your upcoming move months ago and made no
attempt to
find me another good home. They shook their heads and asked
"How could
you?"

They are as attentive to us here in the shelter as their busy
schedules
allow. They feed us, of course, but I lost my appetite days ago.
At first,
whenever anyone passed my pen, I rushed to the front, hoping it
was you
that you had changed your mind -- that this was all a bad
dream... or I
hoped it would at least be someone who cared, anyone who might
save me.

When I realized I could not compete with the frolicking for
attention of
happy puppies, oblivious to their own fate, I retreated to a far
corner and
waited. I heard her footsteps as she came for me at the end of
the day, and
I padded along the aisle after her to a separate room.

A blissfully quiet room. She placed me on the table and rubbed my
ears, and
told me not to worry. My heart pounded in anticipation of what
was to come,
but there was also a sense of relief. The prisoner of love had
run out of
days. As is my nature, I was more concerned about her. The burden
which she
bears weighs heavily on her, and I know that, the same way I knew
your
every mood.

She gently placed a tourniquet around my foreleg as a tear ran
down her
cheek. I licked her hand in the same way I used to comfort you so
many
years ago. She expertly slid the hypodermic needle into my vein.
As I felt
the sting and the cool liquid coursing through my body, I lay
down
sleepily, looked into her kind eyes and murmured "How could
you?"

Perhaps because she understood my dog speak, she said "I'm
so sorry." She
hugged me, and hurriedly explained it was her job to make sure I
went to a
better place, where I wouldn't be ignored or abused or abandoned,
or have
to fend for myself -- a place of love and light so very different
from this
earthly place.

And with my last bit of energy, I tried to convey to her with a
thump of my
tail that my "How could you?" was not directed at her.
It was directed at
you, My Beloved Master, I was thinking of you. I will think of
you and wait
for you forever. May everyone in your life continue to show you
so much loyalty.

A Note from the Author: If "How Could You?" brought
tears to your eyes as you read it, as it did to mine as I wrote it, it
is because it is the composite story of the millions of formerly
"owned" pets who die each year in American & Canadian animal shelters

ref. http://nivnek.blogspot.com/

2004-11-11T15:34:00.000+08:00

i'm mother fucking bloody sick at home now! it's damn boring... anyone ask me out?

2004-10-28T10:14:00.000+08:00

Alpha's here! (duno who? Check here: http://andychew.blogspot.com/ )

he's sooo cute... in a clumsy way? ha

1) peed on our carpet on the first day [a: never tried pee-ing on a carpet]
2) poo-ed on the same carpet an hour later [a: now let me trying poo-ing]
3) tries to climb over the play pen fencing and toppling backwards [a: whoever put me in this fencing is gonna get it from me.. when i get out ><]
4) slping with his butt on the ground and the rest still on the newspaper [a: i like my butt cool]
5) shits on the play bone we gave him [a: if u call a shit bone a play bone]
6) causing 2 play bones to be 'accidentally' cleared away together with his shit [a: it's not my fault, it's the bone's]
7) chews on the play bone we gave tied to a leash and tries real hard to get it off the leash [a: die! shit bone!]
8) triumph over the leash as he just managed to get the bone off the leash [a: heh!]
9) getting all tangled ard the small side table when he's leashed and whelping for help when he's really stucked [a: it's an accident, i swear!]
10) loves Boy [a: no, i desire him]
11) licks Boy [a: that's a big chuck of ice cream u noe]
12) goes after Boy (Boy ruuuuuns!) [a: life's never been better]
13) does not know his name but strangely knows that we are calling him [a: i noe, i just prefer to ignore]
14) die die dun wan to climb the stairs [a: YOU'LL NV MAKE ME RUN THOSE STEEP STAIRS]
15) drinking from the bowl we set aside for him and bringing the bowl wherever he goes (so u guessed it, what happens to the water inside the bowl) [a: i like to have it filled with martell]
16) doesnt seem to get car sick like i do sometimes [a: how can u compare me with u?]
17) ocassionally chases and tries to bite his own tail but never succeeds [a: hey i noe that's my tail, was just trying to clean it up]
---
things are diff with Alpha ard... or not!

2004-10-09T18:06:00.000+08:00

did the survey linked to baobei's blog which he got from elaine's blog. so bored...

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	Very High
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Moderate
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	Low
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Low
-- Personality Disorder Test - Take It! --

2004-10-02T17:23:00.000+08:00

going out soon, finally... yest had a great day. met up uncle, zx and his gf, lay leng, clara and sky di di. had a surprise party for uncle at party world. i dun like the cake though, its not choc. lol.. anyway i guess all of us had a fun time, did enjoy ourselves alot. and i get to see zx's gf for the first time, she's sweet. how bt a second outing on mon~? >.<

who ever have not done my fren test might wanna try doing now. http://leaflots.friendtest.com
btw uncle, u chose the wrong one for the fav color and fav drink, just to let u noe so u dun keep wondering. =D

2004-09-28T13:35:00.000+08:00

You are Form 9, Vampire: The Undying.
"And The Vampire was all that remained on
the blood drowned creation. She attempted to
regrow life from the dead. But as she was
about to give the breath of life, she was
consumed in the flame of The Phoenix and the
cycle began again."
Some examples of the Vampire Form are Hades (Greek)
and Isis (Egyptian).The Vampire is associated with the concept of
death, the number 9, and the element of fire.Her sign is the eclipsed moon.
As a member of Form 9, you are a very realistic
individual. You may be a little idealistic,
but you are very grounded and down to earth.
You realize that not everything lasts, but you
savor every minute of the good times. While
you may sometimes find yourself lonely, you
have strong ties with people that will never be
broken. Vampires are the best friends to have
because they are sensible.

Which Mythological Form Are You?
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2004-09-28T13:28:00.000+08:00

Your soul is bound to the Second Totem, Luna:
The Wolf.
Luna appears as a pair of coral colored wolves.
She embodies empathy, nurturing, insight,
and warmth. She is associated with the
color coral, the season of spring, and the
element of wind. Her downfall is pathos.
You are most compatible with Doves and Ravens.

2004-09-27T13:02:00.000+08:00

http://leaflots.friendtest.com

2004-09-26T19:27:00.000+08:00

we went zoo today.

2004-09-21T13:54:00.000+08:00

Too bored on my off day... so! i decided to do quizzes again.. all time fav.. lolx.. so peeps who like quizzes too, check out quizilla..

You're a "Black Angel" which means your
an Angel of Death. You don't really care much
about people since no one was particularly nice
to you and now you want revenge for their
cruelty. You're always alone unless forced to
be with other people and you love to cause
trouble. You feel depressed a lot and don't
have something that could cheer you up like
most people. You don't find joy in people or
the arts or any item or some sort. You have
darker desires and you're very secretive. (If
you cannot see the picture, go to my homepage
and scroll down near the bottom. I have the
results from all my quizess that have pics)

What Color Angel Are You? (PICS)
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You're a Vampire. Vampires were the creatures of
the night that were believed to live off of
human blood. Count Dracula, being the most
famous vampire, set the stereotype. They had
dark hair and pale skin from being away from
the sunlight. If they actually existed, it's
very possible they had the skin disease that
made you allergic to the sun so whenever the
sunlight would hit it, it would hurt like
crazy. They were usually snobbish and control
freaks and kept werewolves as pets. (If you
cannot see the picture, go to my userpage and
look near the bottom. There should be the
picture and description for all the results)

What Mystical Creature Are You? (Pictures)
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You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be
poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and
creativity, and usually are highly intelligent.
Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet
also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs.

What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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Your anime hair color is green.

What is your anime hair color?
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You have Black Wings! Your feathers are dark, raven
black, which can also be spiny and scaly. No
one really knows why your feathers are this
dark, because you always conceal yourself with
a bubble. A great sadness surrounds you, and
you take it out on others and the world. In
Spite of your beauty, your inside is twisted
and dead, because you were hurt so badly that
youre heart couldnt take it. Before, your wings
were white, and slowly, when your life was
changing, so was the color. You have no
friends, because you cant let anyone get too
close to you. Grief fills your heart, though
anger blinds your eyes.

What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix!
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Oh no!!! i cant stop taking them now!! (lol)

You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You are usually very calm though
so even in desperate situations, you seem to be
the most sane person present. You think things
through and consider the futur rather than the
present. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical. (please forgive me if you cannot see
the pics. If you go to my userpage then you can
see your result picture at the bottom)

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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Ok this's gonna be the last one... going to catch fresh air and read newspaper in the rain? ha... come back play ff7 (again!)! taz~

Everyone thinks he's a bad person, that he has no
heart and that he couldn't love or ever be
loved. Well, you just proved those ignorants
wrong. This dude would go thirty times around
the earth if you would ask him to. A person who
threatens you must really have a death wish.

What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)
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2004-09-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

peeps, free do my fren test ba~ yawnsS

http://leaflots.friendtest.com

2004-09-03T00:03:00.000+08:00

tired arh!!! go slp le dun blog liao... but hor, i realized something goin on with uncle and the ger... forgot her name again. and krissy.. so long nv see her, it felt so good to be talking to her again. maybe go find her next time again... lol... zZzzZzZzzZzzzZ

2004-08-29T04:46:00.000+08:00

came back from fun @ chinablack with uncle, zx and xxx (forgot her name). and ya, met up vincent as well. lotsa rnb/ hiphop after 2.30am, enjoyed myself fully. sweat.. just that had something in my mind, after 3.30am wanted to go home asap. well i'm back but erm... anyway, damn tired, went there after work, gotta catch up my slp. ciaoz..

2004-08-23T11:56:00.000+08:00

CarrieOctober/13/1983Female

You are Yellow Fawn, who tend to be idyllic, not pretentious, and seem to give an impression of a tomboy, and someone who hates to lose. Nevertheless, you are a woman with gentle heart and rather old fashioned ways of thinking. You enjoy having life with atmosphere, and shows consideration and care for others. But you can be very fussy about your preferences.You dislike anything that is dishonest, and have passion and cuteness. Your weakness is that you can be bit selfish at times.You are honest hard working person. Relationships that you feel safe tend to be restricted, and therefore, you are easily influenced by people and situation around you. You can not easily adapt to changes.You think high of morality. You are easily moved by tears, and are honest and sentimental sort of person.You tend to restrict your self with your cautiousness, and this may result in isolation. You tend to be difficult to get to know, and will require time to become friend with.Nevertheless, once your character is understood, you will be able to keep a long and steady friendship.If you keep doing favors for those people who always ask you, you may lose your good fortune. So, be careful. You are not a housewife type of person, but you can be dependent on your husband.

http://noracom.net/eng/fortune/color_cheki1.php

going to work soon, with my headache and all.. he said it'll be better for me to go work since even after seeing a doc, i'm not going to take all the medicine. come to think of it, yea, i shd go to work. 1st. my workplace is getting stricter on pple who take too much mcs. 2nd. today's a night shift so i can get my transport claim. 3rd. i still can move isn't it? though i'm feeling realli sucky and the pain is getting all over me. i'm feeling feverish, but like no fever. haha.. weak sia.. arghhhh... the headache has followed me for 3 days already.. GO AWAY!! 4th. i got no money to see doc anyway.. lolx.. watever.. signing off..

2004-08-19T11:41:00.000+08:00

going to clean up, wish he could sometimes help me out.

2004-08-16T21:27:00.000+08:00

My japanese name is 森田 Morita (forest field) 千秋 Chiaki (very fine in autumn).
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2004-08-16T10:56:00.000+08:00

Today dun realli feel like going to work. somemore there's abit of throat infection (again) thatz making me less feel like talking, or rather difficult to talk. just came back from doc and a short break at coffeeshop. having his place all cleaned up and tidy, should i clean up his drawer too? might have some kinda monster hiding inside that overflowing stack of papers and mails he's keeping there. hmm... i'll see how.

kor's b'dae is coming this sat, and he's asking me to go chinablack on this coming fri, i'll go if he's picking me up. damn tight in cash these few months, somebody help me! by the way, already planned to take leave on 12-13 oct for some activities. my AL is depleting!!!!

i'm sooo excited, 20th is a big day. hopefully i can find time. btw, is he coming back yet?? hur hur...

2004-08-11T12:24:00.000+08:00

halo, home again on my off day, he's still slping as usual. eric's b'dae just past and joanne's coming... almost forgot, ha paiseh ah.. anyway, that fri i'm supposed to slp over at home bedok so i guess it wun harm going for her b'dae bbq. well, of coz if all the others are goin too, since i noe none of joanne's frens.. uncle will plan, so tell me early k.. i'm also planning for my b'dae le, coz i need to apply leave 2 mths ahead before all the slots are taken up. so who's goin to meet me up eh?

2004-08-04T13:32:00.000+08:00

hey.... off day again~ helloooooooooo... home, another day to spend with you. wanna go out but duno go where, almost stucked. maybe go comic shop, and waste some little money i have.. realized i'm getting abito decidophobic, i just fear making decisions recently. wrong decision and i'm down for the rest of the month... it'll go away, hopefully soon.

2004-07-31T14:50:00.000+08:00

it's my off day again. nothing to do, again. just getting used to go to work and all.. just as i was getting comfortable with this damn job, many things in the office are going to change. revolution.. i guess.. haha.. taking classes soon next week. will be quite occupied. its been a long time since i see my group of frens, kinda miss em.

tml's morning shift so although today's a sat, there's no life.. once i finish my things at home, gonna go out for a nice long breather, which is sitting at a coffee shop doing nothing. hahaha.. hey guys, meet me up sometime, when i can find the time.. not in near future though... arghhh... pls take care of yourself, wanna see u all still jumping with life next time.

2004-07-18T21:50:00.000+08:00

while waiting for him to call, i did the following... i'm just too bored at home (bedok)...

Your Icecream Flavour is...
Choc-Chip Cookie Dough!

You are fancy shmancy! You have all the bells and whistles and you attract the most gluttonous of ice-cream shop patrons. You are fattening and intensely rich. That being said, you are very tasty and have a huge fanbase! good for you!

What'>http://www.go-quiz.com/icecream/icecream-test.php">What is your Icecream Flavour?
Find out at Go'>http://www.go-quiz.com/">Go Quiz

i'll stop here... i just did too much of the quizzes.. cant bother noting all down.. he still haven call me yet, going to continue my quiz-zie matters.. taz~

2004-07-11T16:10:00.000+08:00

How to make a Carrie

Ingredients:

3 parts intelligence

3 parts ambition

3 parts joy

Method:
Combine in a tall glass half filled with crushed ice. Add caring to taste! Do not overindulge!

Personality cocktail
From Go-Quiz.com

2004-07-01T17:41:00.000+08:00

just woke up.. quite nua.. yest went chinablack, not as fun as expected. realized they changed their music, after midnight rnb for 1 hr only- was told that due to troubles created by malays (fights) they no longer play rnb till closing. i left early of coz, those unbearable techno and trance.. some din managed to come, camp, sch reopening, no one to accompany them come etc excuses.. watever.. my off day was spent slping till now, nothing to do, to wake him up at 6..

2004-06-27T16:20:00.000+08:00

deleted 5 recent blogs becoz of some reasons. those who haven got to read 'em- just too bad.. they're gone.

You came from heaven. Your gole in life is to help
others and to make the world a better place.
Some call you weak, but in reality your soul is
very strong. If only more people were like
you...

Where did you come from?
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2004-06-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

just got home from a bad day of work.. forgot to bring my hp to work, got irritated and kinda jumpy at work. cms seemed to be more frustrated and eager to get off the line than i was. usually i wun get more than 2 nasty cms a day and it seems to be overloading today.

first one i cant rem already, but he was fucking irritating. 2nd was a son of a bitch who din check his damn a/c whether got money or not before he gave out his bloody chq for pymt. no use arguing, gotta give in.. but wasted me off alot of call handling time. shit..

the last was a stupid bitch who had a pea- brained moron as her husband, called in to complain that she did not open a CA with us. that fucking a/c was opened for a shocking 15+ years already lor! and the a/c already in -$290+ liao lor! i think her eyes must be failing and memory's starting to deteriorate, watz with the bank sending monthly statements to this sick- in- the- brain o' hag?! and that shitty husband of hers still can argue with me abt banking secrecy, why cant take in his instruction to investigate for his wife's personal a/c. why not ask the wife's uncle's daughter's in-law's sister to check better? oso relative wat! sucker! want us to waive all the shit for their ignorance and this barker still dare to ask for reimbursement for their transport if they were to go to the br for investigation leh! tell my manager she oso luff ah! wah liew eh, how come got this kinda pple still alive on earth man! arghhhhhh!!!!!

the above's gonna take 5 years off my expected lifespan. hur hur... scold oso scold till out of breath.. it's getting late, not tired but got nothing to do.. duno if he's coming back or not oso..

2004-06-01T02:22:00.000+08:00

it's starting of the month, work's gonna get busier. it's the "statement week"! cm's gonna call in and make a stupid big fuss over their txns. boring.. working morning shift today again, damn tired.. see.. suffered "concussion" soon after i reached home yest. haven had lunch N dinner.. gonna grab breakfast later, i swear..

bao bei is busy, so busy today.. duno whether he's coming back or not... haiz...

2004-05-28T01:44:00.000+08:00

today's the 28th... tml's the 29th... it's so familiar but it's no longer my concern. he's been waiting for this day to come, for an ans, for a turnback, from me. he still msgs me from time to time, but it seems that everything he said or asked did not interest me and in another way, provoked me. it's sad to see that things turn out this way, although i dun regret at all. life is so unpredictable..

it's still gonna be a tough month this june.. maybe july, even aug.. who noes? that's just part of life, a valuable lesson one shd go thru, though nv would anyone volunteer. i'm still thinking abt the nice LEAF bangle holly and i saw at Bits and Pieces sometime back *drools*

i foresee myself in one month's time as a happy ger, in one year's time a happy ger and in perhaps five year's time still a happy ger. i'm always happy, nothing seems to bring me down. oh well, maybe sometimes some things do...

2004-05-18T17:23:00.000+08:00

I'm back from 4days 3nights' Langkawi trip. the weather there is so damn bad - hot enough to make ang mos turn red like lobster and to fully dehydrate me to the core even though i drank lotsa water - i swear i drank alot! the pple there are friendly and the living is simple. things are cheap but din manage to get much for myself. however i got to force some chicken thigh meat down my throat and some other funny stuffs that i dun or will nv try eating. hell.. and goosebumps! i din get to go for the snokling thingy nor bao bei get the mangrove tour, it was fully booked by taiwaneses and whichever country those ang mos came from. maybe better luck next time... overall, it was kinda fun i guess, hope it'll would be more enjoyable the next trip.. and oh ya, i like the cactus cafe. =)

2004-05-08T01:48:00.000+08:00

life's getting tougher, but still have to go on. i'm still as happy, though obstacles kept getting more and more. or shd i say, never in my 20 yr's life did i feel so down, so out and helpless. but i guess it's time i pick up new things, to cope with such situations and set HACCP (hazard analysis and critical control points)! that's wat i used to control food hazards while studying my course in TP. lolx..

uncertainty fills the air ard me, was this way, still this way now. she's gone, i missed her. she nv called, i missed her. her ham ham is staying with me, i missed her. i read her blog, i missed her... hur hur..

today's someone's b'dae, someone whom i'm in love deeply. just wanna wish him a very very hapy b'dae, will love him till the end (where's the end?? o.O`).. haha.. though he's not here with me, i'm with him, in his heart, might not be able see me, but still be able feel me.. (abit eerie... *shivers*)

*@`*^*~v~*^*`@* HaPpY *@`*^*~v~*^*`@*
*@`*^*~v~*^*`@* bIrThDaY *@`*^*~v~*^*`@*
*@`*^*~v~*^*`@* bAoBeI *@`*^*~v~*^*`@*

before this blog's posted: he came back to surprise me, i got a big big shock instead. but still happy to see him. she called me too, happy happy.. all smiles =)

2004-05-03T08:28:00.000+08:00

Woke up to prepare for work le. still trying hard to wake him up. hungry hungry... think later buy bread to eat during work. kinda tired (slpt ard 4am) but still ok la, can always slp when i reach home after that. hopefully today i wun be late for work again... and hope that she's meeting me tonight.

2004-04-30T12:11:00.000+08:00

	Wish Bear You are the dreamer of the group and believe that things will all turn out exactly how you want them to be. Your extreme optimism often annoys your friends but they realize that you do have the power to make your dreams come true. You also keep an eye out for your friends, always looking out for them.
*Take the Which Care Bear Are You?* Quiz!**

2004-04-22T05:26:00.000+08:00

just read a nice webbie with love quotations while waiting for hubbie to call. found one real nice and meaningful quote: Absence is to love what wind is to fire; it extinguishes the small, it inflames the great -- Christopher Marlowe . self-explanatory... =) feel ambivalent abt something now...

2004-04-18T19:31:00.000+08:00

he finally understands how indecisive i can be...

2004-04-18T07:03:00.000+08:00

After a long time, he msged me once again. he gave me his blessings and "hoping that i'll take and give at the same time", he said. i duno wat he meant. maybe i took alot from him, i duno.. and i have nv contribute anything in return? it hurts.. but i noe this wun hurt as much as if it came from another person. this person is working now, wonder how's he doing.. tired but i'll wait, no matter wat.. =)

2004-04-17T12:14:00.000+08:00

he wun wake up. fei and holly asking us out for lunch. i'm hungry. but he's so sound aslp... so tired. suddenly i was reminded of the past.

2004-04-17T10:07:00.000+08:00

just read alot of pple's blog, so tot of blogging for my own. many things happened these days, cant quite rem though.. i feel blessed now with my current bf, and i wish all the best for my frens to be happy too.. life has its ups and downs, some hiccups somewhere along the path u are heading.. but all these occur not to bring u down, they happen to make u stronger. it evens shows u how much u mean to ur frens, how they can stand by ur side like there's a meaning in life.

I feel sad becoz the pple i love are, but never to blame them even when they do the wrong things. humans are supposed to strive for the best and for happiness, even if it meant letting someone down. those being let down, do not fret, at least u noe, u've tried, loved, put in most efforts and he/ she's happy even though he/ she is not by ur side at this moment. ~

begin to miss uncle, zx, popiah they all alot... in such a long time from the period i've known them, haven been unable to meet them for more than a mth. now it's more than a mth ever since i saw them. hopefully can meet them tonight (working nite shift leh... hur..) and u noe, catch up..

2004-04-09T13:40:00.000+08:00

This is the 2nd time i'm blogging, sorry guys not much upd. i'm not a person who likes to blog... oh well... The 15th day Dom and I get together... No work because today's good fri, feel sorry that my hubby has to work... dun think today's a good day, no place to go and chill and no one to keep me accompany. just read Zx's blog, blame myself tat i'm unable to read it sooner or even feel that he's troubled earlier. Might just meet him tonight to chat. As for Shaun, duno whether mtg him or not, my hubby doesnt like him. just feel that today sux... got to get hubby out from bed le, ta~

2004-03-19T03:26:00.000+08:00

Okie.. so my dear fren Dom has just set up this template for me. the doggies damn cute.. lolx.. goin zzZz.. continue next time... p/s thx alot to Dom for helping me this pc idiot *hugs* ="I